Wednesday, January 19, 2011

"When the time comes to leave, just walk away quietly and don't make a fuss" -Banksy


By BANKSY
found in Southbank, London

Untittled

White and clean
The dress beckons
Do I want to try you on?
Yes, I reckon

You look so pretty
Ironed flat
You fit me like a glove
How about that?

Red and shiny
You glisten from afar
I wish to be a part of you
Your contrast on the tar

When I spare the dime
You laugh and say
"We have have no time,
I must go away"

I smiled
And curtsied
We said our good byes
I reached a hand out to say
"I wish I could fly"

I know what your thinking,
And don't you fret
I think of the balloon everyday, but yet
I still don't miss it
For I know
Everything has its time to go

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

And The Place Was Water...

Paean to Place by Lorine Niedecker

And the place
was water

Fish
fowl
flood
Water lily mud
My life

in the leaves and on water
My mother and I
born
in swale and swamp and sworn
to water

My father
thru marsh fog
sculled down
from high ground
saw her face

at the organ
bore the weight of lake water
and the cold—
he seined for carp to be sold
that their daughter

might go high
on land
to learn
Saw his wife turn
deaf

and away
She
who knew boats
and ropes
no longer played


She helped him string out nets
for tarring
And she could shoot
He was cool
to the man

who stole his minnows
by night and next day offered
to sell them back
He brought in a sack
of dandelion greens

if no flood
No oranges—none at hand
No marsh marigold
where the water rose
He kept us afloat


I mourn her not hearing canvasbacks
their blast-off rise
from the water
Not hearing sora
rails’s sweet

spoon-tapped waterglass-
descending scale-
tear-drop-tittle
Did she giggle
as a girl?


His skiff skimmed
the coiled celery now gone
from these streams
due to carp
He knew duckweed

fall-migrates
toward Mud Lake bottom
Knew what lay
under leaf decay
and on pickerel weeds

before summer hum
To be counted on:
new leaves
new dead
leaves


He could not
—like water bugs—
stride surface tension
He netted
loneliness

As to his bright new car
my mother—her house
next his—averred:
A hummingbird
can’t haul

Anchored here
in the rise and sink
of life—
middle years’ nights
he sat

beside his shoes
rocking his chair
Roped not “looped
in the loop
of her hair”


I grew in green
slide and slant
of shore and shade
Child-time—wade
thru weeds

Maples to swing from
Pewee-glissando
sublime
slime-
song

Grew riding the river
Books
at home-pier
Shelley could steer
as he read


I was the solitary plover
a pencil
for a wing-bone
From the secret notes
I must tilt

upon the pressure
execute and adjust
In us sea-air rhythm
“We live by the urgent wave
of the verse”


Seven year molt
for the solitary bird
and so young
Seven years the one
dress

for town once a week
One for home
faded blue-striped
as she piped
her cry


Dancing grounds
my people had none
woodcocks had—
backland-
air around

Solemnities
such as what flower
to take
to grandfather’s grave
unless

water lilies—
he who’d bowed his head
to grass as he mowed
Iris now grows
on fill

for the two
and for him
where they lie
How much less am I
in the dark than they?


Effort lay in us
before religions
at pond bottom
All things move toward
the light

except those
that freely work down
to oceans’ black depths
In us an impulse tests
the unknown




River rising—flood
Now melt and leave home
Return—broom wet
naturally wet
Under

soak-heavy rug
water bugs hatched—
no snake in the house
Where were they?—
she

who knew how to clean up
after floods
he who bailed boats, houses
Water endows us
with buckled floors

You with sea water running
in your veins sit down in water
Expect the long-stemmed blue
speedwell to renew
itself


O my floating life
Do not save love
for things
Throw things
to the flood

ruined
by the flood
Leave the new unbought—
all one in the end—
water

I possessed
the high word:
The boy my friend
played his violin
in the great hall


On this stream
my moonnight memory
washed of hardships
maneuvers barges
thru the mouth

of the river
They fished in beauty
It was not always so
In Fishes
red Mars

rising
rides the sloughs and sluices
of my mind
with the persons
on the edge


*

Wow, i never knew how long it was. This poem has been my favorite since last year, but I had believed it was the first part(red) only. I didn't know of the rest of the poem, so I feel it is only right to unpack the first part.

Whenever I read this poem, I am thrown into this world of water and wet life. I love the beginning line: And the place was water. This line is kind of a metaphor and kind of a hyperbole. It creates an image that sets the mood and setting for the rest of the poem. It's a very narrative poem, telling a story the whole time. It tells the story of the mother, the father, and the narrator- and how they all got there. At times, it can be very explicitly explained, while at others it is not explained at all. The rhyme scheme is not regular, but when it occurs it creates an off rhythm and it skips a line(often). After reading the poem a couple of times, it sounds like a list. The list and the rhythm makes me read the poem, like its a song. A lot of lines have alliteration in it, like:
My mother and I born in swale and swamp and sworn. This also adds to the sing-song-y quality of the poem. Saw his wife turn deaf and away She who knew boats and ropes no longer played. This line, was always a turning point for me in the poem. When the mother suffers from something horrible, it always changed the mood of the poem. For a once happy, song-like poem became weighty and sad to read.

The rhythm and the list-likeness, along with the actual content, make me believe that the narrator wanted us to just keep going, no matter the obstacle. Even if something horrible happens, like what happened to the narrator's mother((either depression or death)), life still goes on. Another possible idea is, always remember your history. Your background and family life is very important in the entirety of your life. Maybe, it is like "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". Do the strongest people, come from the toughest background? I love this poem because of all of the different interpretations. But after I read the poem, I always feel stronger and enlightened. Coincidence?

Being strong and confident is such an important thing in life. If you never stand up for yourself, you could end up like the father in Back To The Future, who is a father of three children and still lets his high school bully boss him around. I know that sounds cheesy, but being confident is so important in the way people see you and you see yourself. Remember, life goes on during the good and the bad times. Stay confident in yourself, and people will confide in you.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Congratulate me....

*SPOILERS ALERT: Alfred Hitchcock's Shadow of a Doubt-reveals ending for the film*

Congratulate me, I have finally finished Youth In Revolt by C.D.Payne! Finishing such a large book inspired me to treat myself to my favorite Hitchcock, Shadow Of A Doubt(1943-
Teresa Wright, Joseph Cotten and Macdonald Carey). While I was watching the special features, Alfred Hitchcock was responding to a question about why Teresa Wright's character turned against her uncle, who had committed a series of horrible crimes, yet she him loved dearly. He quoted Oscar Wilde; "...each man kills the thing he loves..."

This hit me, and changed my point of view on Youth In Revolt almost completely. Instead of hating Nick Twisp for doing the stupid things he does for love, I understand that we all end up harming the thing we love most; either as dramatically as Nick Twisp to his family or as lightly as over talking to your friends about your new favorite band and then they ended up hating them. This seems very human, it has happened to me so often, maybe this is the objective of the novel. Perhaps the author C.D.Payne made Nick Twisp do the awful things he does to his family, to show the reader how we as humans affect our surroundings. To show how we SHOULD respect the things we love. Or even maybe Payne made N.Twisp do awful things and to ruin his own life, to show how we should appreciate our lives. The story of Nick Twisp will always puzzle me, and I fear I will never be able to fully appreciate the novel.

Have you ever killed something you love(metaphorically)?

AFTER THOUGHTS-yet another interpretation of Oscar Wilde's brilliance:
"...each man kills the thing he loves..."
Perhaps, the man who loves this thing the most has-almost-permission to end it, or kill it so to speak...Only because he knows so much and loves it so...Your thoughts?

Monday, December 20, 2010

Yet another Youth In Revolt post...(inspired by molly's post about characters: http://epiceyebrows.blogspot.com/2010/12/looking-into-mirror.html)


Have you ever seen someone in a crowd, and wanted to get to know them? Well that happens to me all the time, but now that I am reading Youth In Revolt I start thinking of everyone I don't know fully as a dirty, horrible liar. This assumption is totally unfair to those who are actually sweet and honestly nice. This makes me wonder if its better to know someone fully, with their flaws and all, or to barely know someone.

I think it totally depends on the person you get to know. Knowing someone you admire or enjoy spending time with very well, is great. Then you can talk deeply, and have inside jokes etc. Knowing someone very well and caring for them go hand and hand. But knowing someone you despise or hate very well, can be the worst thing possible. You will probably end up hating them, and quite possibly hating yourself.

Unfortunately, I haven't gotten very far in Youth In Revolt. Something always repulsed me about Nick Twisp, maybe its because the story gets TOO deep into his head. Since I dislike Nick Twisp, I don't want to know EVERYTHING that goes through his head.

This is what makes or breaks a story; the characters. If you really like a character, then reading will be a pleasure. But if you dislike a character, you will probably dislike reading just as much.

I often want to meet actors or musicians that seem super awesome. But you never know if you would get along with them. Sometimes ones expectations about a person, are not at all what that person is like.

Have you ever had this experience? Explain

Monday, December 13, 2010

When Should We Stop Watching, And Start Living?


I know this is sinful, but I haven't read at all this week! The largeness of Youth In Revolt by C.D.Payne intimidates me, and causes me to run away from the book instead of reading it. But this weekend I was thinking about it while my family and I were driving to see my cousins. I have come up with a question; When Should We Stop Watching, And Start Living? My question breaks down into these other questions: How does one view and interact with the world? What is considered 'living'?

I come from a family of watchers. My mom is a photographer and has a certain view of the world and shes not afraid to express how much she likes or dislikes something. She often shows me what a great photograph would look like, and describes why. I have odd memories of my mom and I moving slowing into the shadow covered park, taking in each and every small blade of grass and making it a pretend photograph and framing it in between our fingers. I still do that now, except I do it in my head. I look at the world through a specific lens; one that automatically creates a story, composition, contrast, and beauty in the world around me. This does not nessicarily make me a "good" artist, instead an avid viewer of this world. This also causes me to think too much, and psychoanalyze things. If I am brought up with an opportunity, I am likely to think too much, and then the moment passes when I have reached a decision.

Nick Twisp, the narrator of the story, is also a watcher. He never really speaks back, or does anything daring, or hangs out with new people. But when he meets Sheeni, he suddenly changes. She dares Nick to be "bad", and start living. But what is considered living? I would say doing what you love. So if he doesn't enjoy being bad, why should he? Why should we change for someone else? Should we stop being ourselves, and become the person our significant other wants us to be? I believe not. We are who we are, and I'm not sure if Nick Twisp is doing the right thing. If someone doesn't like you for who you are, you shouldn't change.

What if watching is your form of living, like me and Nick?

Then I would say keep watching.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Weekly Music Artist: SUMMER CAMP

So, SUMMER CAMP is just one of those awesome/super-duper/kick-butt/epic/so good/life changing bands that is not as known as they should be. They are an independent band based in the UK.
They are known for Ghost Train, Round the Moon, and Christmas Wrapping(waitress cover). But my favorite is Why Don't You Stay. All music found on their Myspace page. Fortunetly, they are now on iTunes!! I'm pretty excited about this, considering that they were not on till quite recently.
Here they are:

They are also known for their use of photographs from the 70s. Like this one:

Monday, December 6, 2010

"Every Revolution Needs A Leader"


I am currently enjoying the extremely dirty thoughts and words of Nick Twisp, the narrator of Youth In Revolt by C.D.Payne. Nick Twisp is a 14 year old boy, living in California, trying to loose his virginity and impress his girl. To impress, he must act as devilishly rebellious as possible. He burns cars and scares his parents, he lies uncontrollably and scares his friend's parents, he runs away and occasionally does drugs. While reading this story, I started questioning what is rebellion and is rebelling the only way to truly live?

According to Google, rebellion is "refusal to accept some authority or code or convention". According to the Canadian band, Arcade Fire's song Rebellion(Lies) being rebellious is doing things that aren't good, then lying and keeping it from others. According to BBC, rebellion is " often symbolic. They want to look grown up and impress their friends." To further explain, BBC explains taking risks: " teenagers have well-developed emotions and feelings but have still not acquired the ability to think things through."

If you never act out, and never do anything against the rules for all of your life, are you wasting your life?

I believe that wasting your life, has nothing to do with your level of rebelliousness, but your level of happiness.

Are you happy doing what you are doing?